Today was a "What the Heck?" kind of day

Well when it rains it pours. My day started just like any other...got up when I heard the kids, made breakfast, cleaned up and then disaster hits. Today was the day for a birthday party for my son and let me tell you that I was ready to call everyone and tell them to stay home.
The house was destroyed by noon and I still had normal Saturday things to do. The grass needs to be cut, the laundry needs to get done and I really wanted to watch my movie before it was due back at the store. Nothing got done, so here I am after 11p.m. waiting for one load of laundry to dry, the kitchen floor to dry and I still didn't get to watch my movie.
By the time that the party was suppossed to start I was tired, sweaty and so upset with everyone and everything that I just wanted my house empty and quiet. Like that was going to happen.
Deployment has been rough and this was the first major event since he left. I could have used him today. My son has never known another as "daddy" and he was deeply missed. Some of his family showed up (brother and sister-in-law with their girls) at the party and all I could think about is that I wanted them gone and that I shouldn't have invited them to the party. I love having any type of family around for birthdays but they acted like it was burden to show up.
I don't get it. If you don't want to be someplace then DON'T GO!! It's that simple. Don't show up and act like you are doing me a favor. I have never even cared that my family doesn't live close enough to show up like but after today......I have decided that for any and all happy events that I will travel north to see my family because they are always happy to see us and don't act like the have someplace else that they would rather be.
The closest that I have to family here is a friend that I met in college and she and I have gotten close and we have our kids and immediate families together and we are as close as though we were blood. I don't know what I would have done if she had not been here today.
I think that I should stop for tonight because I am still upset and need to calm down.

Sept. 21, 2009

Today is the day that I will do the final hunt for party favors and anything Batman. This is going to be a hard birthday without everyone able to come. There is so much that is going on that kids don't understand. I have tried to explain that some people are busy and can't make it but all I hear back.."but mooommm, they promised and were suppossed to keep 'em promises". Who can argue with that?! I can't, I have tried and tried.
Another sleepless night took place last night and then there were the sounds of tiny feet coming toward my room. My son was so sure that he could crawl into bed with me that he brought his teddy, blankie and pillow. Bad dreams are one thing, but this one scared him enough that he didn't want to talk about it, he only to cuddle. I was ok with that.